You know, I am sitting at my desk in my room at 130 in the morning and i really am so annoyed. Actually, thats not even the words to be described. I am pissed off, annoyed, frustrated, and sorrowful all at the same time... plus a few others. I am being real, so get over it.
Tonight, the bonfire was lit prematurely and all fire alarms across campus were pulled. Students came out, people were hiding, being disrespectful, complaining, and the like. I definitely was annoyed and had to put a filter and seal over my mouth. I was annoyed and it was for valid reasons. However, the actions of some of the people on this campus are not. This is normal in the world we live in, and unfortunately, it has become normal among the body of christ.... clearly.
I know that we are a broken people. We all have broken lives, issues, matter of the heart that need to be fixed, and we need solution. We need Jesus.
I am attending a school actually a university that I have CHOSEN to come to. I LOVE THIS PLACE and all it stands for. I understand that there are rules, and there are standards that have been set before us, and some of them, we do not necessarily understand why they are in place yet there are standards and they are backed up with biblical support... and i get that and i respect that. But what I DONT get is that how so many people (STUDENTS) come here, with awesome stories of how God brought here, why they love this place, and why they dont want to leave, and YET they are rebellious, complain about the rules, etc... and act like and say there is no freedom... let me say one thing... YOU HAVE THE FREEDOM TO LIVE HOW YOU WANT and YOU HAVE THE FREEDOM TO LEAVE...
I WANT TO BE HERE. I am ok with submitting to the authority placed before me, I am ok that there are standards set before me that i have to live with, and I understand that there will be discipline when I am out of line... I understand these are here for greater purpose than I know, and I also know that these are God purposed things as well.
If you dont like the rules or even ORU and what they stand for, LEAVE. Please. There are places you can go that are cheaper, rule free, wild, fun, and honestly, ask yourself why you really came.
Believe me, we want you here, I am in leadership here and we want you here. We know you can be transformed through this place because of the focus on Christ placed as a priority at this school and by those who believe in ORU. However, I also known that the Love of God is not confined to a school campus, and some of you people reading this, there is a possiblility that this place IS NOT for you... and God can take you somewhere else to LOVE you where you need it.....
I stood tonight and watched as many students of the ORU stood outside waiting for security to give the go to permit students to re-enter the dorm. I found myself really saddened as I looked at the downcast face of our Student Body President walk through the mass of people being rushed out of the dorms. I am sure he feels as if he has labored in vain and his work was for nothing. I watched a student who has led worship in chapel mouth off to a fellow student, the only difference was that he had a title and the one who led worship did not... hmmmm..... this saddens me... I watched girls give dirty looks to other girls only because of being asked to move closer to the dorms as the men walked slowly back to the dorms....
ORU is different from the world... that is why it is so special. We are set apart, or at least most of us want to be... isn't that why we all are here!? I am annoyed because we are not living to the standard we know we should be living at... and this standard is not a false expecation or too high or whatever. The Standard is Jesus, and with Christ all things are possible, meaning failure in our processes are impossible. WE MUST UNDERGO SURGERY, and THAT is submission and abandonment.
I ask the Lord, "Lord! What does Grace look like 'cause i am pissed off and ready to yell at some people... they are SO jacked up!!?" I am thinking that I want to confront some people, yell in their face, and tell them to leave this place.
But my heart is quicked and sadness fills it... Jesus says, "LOVE INSPITE. I LOVE THEM." I continue to say, "LORD! But what does Grace look like now?" God says, "PRAYER" I am lead by the spirit of God, and when i am lead then action and verbatim will be utilized. Until his leading... i will pray.
So i am heart checked tonight by the Lord and led to a greater realization of the need for prayer for my campus, the students who are my friends, my family in Jesus.
I am beginning to pray differently for this campus. I will pray that God will weed out the weeds that are hindering the healthy functioning of the body of Christ aka the people who dont like the rules and dont really want to be here. I know God is not limited by location, and God can heal them and fix those people somewhere else if he wants... so ill pray and see what God does. I will pray that the spirit of rebellion within the body of Christ on this campus (THE STUDENTS) will be shattered, and gets a kick to the curb. I will pray for men and women on this campus who are bold enough to stand up for truth and live it truly to those on this campus that need to see it. I will pray for strategic positioning for those who are supposed to be here but have serious issues. I know we all have them, but some people cart behind them caravans of junk... Lets keep the person, but get rid of the junk....
Thanks for reading. I am venting, and I am being real. I am honest in saying that there are some real people bother me mainly because of thier actions and words, however I will also say that these are the people that i really want to watch and see what the Lord does in them. What does Grace look like. You know I dont know. But I know that the Word of God is not my the truth, and truth is what sets people free. My desire is that I will willingly let the Word of the Lord be the standard by which i not only live my life, but that those on that campus will as well... we walk as students of ORU and as people who represent the kingdom of God...
Tonight, the bonfire was lit prematurely and all fire alarms across campus were pulled. Students came out, people were hiding, being disrespectful, complaining, and the like. I definitely was annoyed and had to put a filter and seal over my mouth. I was annoyed and it was for valid reasons. However, the actions of some of the people on this campus are not. This is normal in the world we live in, and unfortunately, it has become normal among the body of christ.... clearly.
I know that we are a broken people. We all have broken lives, issues, matter of the heart that need to be fixed, and we need solution. We need Jesus.
I am attending a school actually a university that I have CHOSEN to come to. I LOVE THIS PLACE and all it stands for. I understand that there are rules, and there are standards that have been set before us, and some of them, we do not necessarily understand why they are in place yet there are standards and they are backed up with biblical support... and i get that and i respect that. But what I DONT get is that how so many people (STUDENTS) come here, with awesome stories of how God brought here, why they love this place, and why they dont want to leave, and YET they are rebellious, complain about the rules, etc... and act like and say there is no freedom... let me say one thing... YOU HAVE THE FREEDOM TO LIVE HOW YOU WANT and YOU HAVE THE FREEDOM TO LEAVE...
I WANT TO BE HERE. I am ok with submitting to the authority placed before me, I am ok that there are standards set before me that i have to live with, and I understand that there will be discipline when I am out of line... I understand these are here for greater purpose than I know, and I also know that these are God purposed things as well.
If you dont like the rules or even ORU and what they stand for, LEAVE. Please. There are places you can go that are cheaper, rule free, wild, fun, and honestly, ask yourself why you really came.
Believe me, we want you here, I am in leadership here and we want you here. We know you can be transformed through this place because of the focus on Christ placed as a priority at this school and by those who believe in ORU. However, I also known that the Love of God is not confined to a school campus, and some of you people reading this, there is a possiblility that this place IS NOT for you... and God can take you somewhere else to LOVE you where you need it.....
I stood tonight and watched as many students of the ORU stood outside waiting for security to give the go to permit students to re-enter the dorm. I found myself really saddened as I looked at the downcast face of our Student Body President walk through the mass of people being rushed out of the dorms. I am sure he feels as if he has labored in vain and his work was for nothing. I watched a student who has led worship in chapel mouth off to a fellow student, the only difference was that he had a title and the one who led worship did not... hmmmm..... this saddens me... I watched girls give dirty looks to other girls only because of being asked to move closer to the dorms as the men walked slowly back to the dorms....
ORU is different from the world... that is why it is so special. We are set apart, or at least most of us want to be... isn't that why we all are here!? I am annoyed because we are not living to the standard we know we should be living at... and this standard is not a false expecation or too high or whatever. The Standard is Jesus, and with Christ all things are possible, meaning failure in our processes are impossible. WE MUST UNDERGO SURGERY, and THAT is submission and abandonment.
I ask the Lord, "Lord! What does Grace look like 'cause i am pissed off and ready to yell at some people... they are SO jacked up!!?" I am thinking that I want to confront some people, yell in their face, and tell them to leave this place.
But my heart is quicked and sadness fills it... Jesus says, "LOVE INSPITE. I LOVE THEM." I continue to say, "LORD! But what does Grace look like now?" God says, "PRAYER" I am lead by the spirit of God, and when i am lead then action and verbatim will be utilized. Until his leading... i will pray.
So i am heart checked tonight by the Lord and led to a greater realization of the need for prayer for my campus, the students who are my friends, my family in Jesus.
I am beginning to pray differently for this campus. I will pray that God will weed out the weeds that are hindering the healthy functioning of the body of Christ aka the people who dont like the rules and dont really want to be here. I know God is not limited by location, and God can heal them and fix those people somewhere else if he wants... so ill pray and see what God does. I will pray that the spirit of rebellion within the body of Christ on this campus (THE STUDENTS) will be shattered, and gets a kick to the curb. I will pray for men and women on this campus who are bold enough to stand up for truth and live it truly to those on this campus that need to see it. I will pray for strategic positioning for those who are supposed to be here but have serious issues. I know we all have them, but some people cart behind them caravans of junk... Lets keep the person, but get rid of the junk....
Thanks for reading. I am venting, and I am being real. I am honest in saying that there are some real people bother me mainly because of thier actions and words, however I will also say that these are the people that i really want to watch and see what the Lord does in them. What does Grace look like. You know I dont know. But I know that the Word of God is not my the truth, and truth is what sets people free. My desire is that I will willingly let the Word of the Lord be the standard by which i not only live my life, but that those on that campus will as well... we walk as students of ORU and as people who represent the kingdom of God...
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