Saturday, March 13, 2010

ALIVE in an urgent state of change

Written on November 16th, 2007L

I AM ALIVE. I have breath to do all God is calling me to do. today is a new day. i ask you Lord, to come make your way. i open my ears and my eyes to you. i thank you that i have all i need for today. the finances to do and buy what i need for today. the mind to remember, think, learn, and reflect. the hands and feet to go and do what you will for this day. your joy is my strength, your grace is more than enough. you are my salvation in all thinkgs and you are my provision-- I HAVE NO LACK.
my time is yours, do what you will. test my discernment--to learn to trust you and your voice. i will not be afraid of that of the world. there is no fear-- for perfect peace reigns. i am a confident woman bcause my confidence is in you. i am set apart as a woman of her word and time. she is strong, humble, kind, loving and whole because Jesus keeps her that way. my value is more precious than jewels, and everything i am is significant-- what will i do today? what change will come about as a result of my significance?


I am in an urgent state of change. Deep revelations have flooded my mind this week, as i walk through the GC, hearing bits and pieces of conversatons... living "day to day" is petty, and insignificant. that is not the life i was destined and born to live. Longings deep inside me must be continually handed over to the Lord... the dying of my flesh; this requires sacrifice. They are now the Lords. I AM FULLY ALIVE.

Abraham was told to give his son up as a sacrifice to the Lord. SO, early in the morning (dark and no street lights) Abraham and his son Isacc hike up the hill to create an alter for the Lord. Isacc asks his Father where the sacrifice is, Abraham replies "The Lord will provide." In my mind i think, didnt Isacc argue with his father, and demand not to be given as a sacrifice. I would be screaming bloody murder if my dad tied my hands with cords and set me on a table, having a knife in his hand. this is the picture that i see in my mind. how does a man walk in such a way that there is so much trust and respect for a father, and ultimately his God? Issac submitted, and Abraham obeyed. There is something significant about obedience and submission. This is where i am. I want to know that trust, i want to have that Faith of Abraham to know that His God is able, IN ALL THINGS. i was to obey the Lord, and submit to what he wants... two separate things that together actives the promises of God.

Faith is Action, Action is Change... what must change in my life. I have re-evaluated where i spend my time and with whom. i have decided to watch my actions and my words. to be careful with what comes out of my mouth so as not to speak death or hurt, to be beyond reproach. Though i have not surrounded myself with bad people, i have just realized that my time is more precious than i already know, and time is limited. This limited time, if not used wisely, will affect eternity and the lives of many people.

I want to bring change. a vessel for God to mold and use. What must change in my life for that to happen? what will i have to sacrifice to walk fully in the obedience God is asking me to walk in? I am not forced to, I want to.

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