I am lounging in my bed in a hotel room in georgia. the lights are off. the glow of my computer illuminates my face i am sure. my mom asleep next to me, my two sisters in the next bed. I can hear my brothers and dad in the room behind my bed.
I need Jesus. not just tonight. but everyday.
Let's preface... This break has been good. it has been what i needed from a hectic semester with some tough classes. this break I have been able to do some of the very things I love.
i have spent quality time with my family. I have snowboarded, played in the ocean, read by the fireplace, cuddled with my siblings, and laughed harder than i have in a while. i ran around disney like a little girl, giggly and exited about the princesses of stories that i wish i was in. where is my prince?
i have cried myself to sleep, taken pictures of beautiful sunsets, and laughed as i have made music videos with siblings.
somedays i think i have the best family in the world. somtimes i think i have the worst. Not because they are perfect, actually quite the opposite. they are human.
They argue, they fight, they yell, and they sometimes make me cry. They are honest and they are real, nothing fake. they also love. they are hilarious, unihibited, bold, and dramatic.
I too am Human. I instigate, I rebuttal, I yell, I am mean. I don't want to do any of this ever but sometimes i do. I want to love. but not love like a human. i want to love like Jesus. and I want to be loved like Jesus. I know I am.
in this hotel room i am reminded, more of a revelation, deep night one, that i need jesus. i watch a news scroll on tv "bombs being sent into Israel."
Our world needs Jesus.
One thing I do know, is that I have Him in my heart, and I have a relationship with him. I am forever thankful for the love of God and how he saved my life and how he continues to save my life. Jesus, thank you.
At the end of this I also know that change will happen both in my life and in my family's because I have Jesus. but also because I have to make a choice to give Christ my everything, to give him... Me. It is so simple, but so daily. that is hard.
fact is that away from ORU I am not surrounded by godly friends. not surrounded by the praises of god by man. not under the influence of godly men and women. i am thankful for what i have gained at ORU... its not like "home." it is a choice, what is the state of my mind, my eyes, my heart. everything. my music choice. my time spent. everything.
DAILY i must examine my heart, and read the Word and make sure the 2 line up... Maggie, Check yourself.
I have experienced this many a times throughout my 5 years at ORU... it is what life after ORU CAN look like, if you let it.
So simple yet so hard. daily.
Jesus, here I am.
I need Jesus. not just tonight. but everyday.
Let's preface... This break has been good. it has been what i needed from a hectic semester with some tough classes. this break I have been able to do some of the very things I love.
i have spent quality time with my family. I have snowboarded, played in the ocean, read by the fireplace, cuddled with my siblings, and laughed harder than i have in a while. i ran around disney like a little girl, giggly and exited about the princesses of stories that i wish i was in. where is my prince?
i have cried myself to sleep, taken pictures of beautiful sunsets, and laughed as i have made music videos with siblings.
somedays i think i have the best family in the world. somtimes i think i have the worst. Not because they are perfect, actually quite the opposite. they are human.
They argue, they fight, they yell, and they sometimes make me cry. They are honest and they are real, nothing fake. they also love. they are hilarious, unihibited, bold, and dramatic.
I too am Human. I instigate, I rebuttal, I yell, I am mean. I don't want to do any of this ever but sometimes i do. I want to love. but not love like a human. i want to love like Jesus. and I want to be loved like Jesus. I know I am.
in this hotel room i am reminded, more of a revelation, deep night one, that i need jesus. i watch a news scroll on tv "bombs being sent into Israel."
Our world needs Jesus.
One thing I do know, is that I have Him in my heart, and I have a relationship with him. I am forever thankful for the love of God and how he saved my life and how he continues to save my life. Jesus, thank you.
At the end of this I also know that change will happen both in my life and in my family's because I have Jesus. but also because I have to make a choice to give Christ my everything, to give him... Me. It is so simple, but so daily. that is hard.
fact is that away from ORU I am not surrounded by godly friends. not surrounded by the praises of god by man. not under the influence of godly men and women. i am thankful for what i have gained at ORU... its not like "home." it is a choice, what is the state of my mind, my eyes, my heart. everything. my music choice. my time spent. everything.
DAILY i must examine my heart, and read the Word and make sure the 2 line up... Maggie, Check yourself.
I have experienced this many a times throughout my 5 years at ORU... it is what life after ORU CAN look like, if you let it.
So simple yet so hard. daily.
Jesus, here I am.
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